Day two

Let me tell you about today May 01, 2011.

This morning I was awoken by the rain. I love the rain. I stayed up and listened to it for a while, and then I laid my head back down to sleep again. At 9 I got up for church. It was still raining and I was able to take deep breaths and feel relax. I appreciated the feeling after the stress of yesterday. I got in my blue truck and drove to church. I love my church family here in Allen; it’s my escape. My youth pastor Tyler is probably one of the most influential people I know. I look up to him. This morning he talked to me about quantum physics. Something he doesn’t know a lot about, but it’s fun to hear him talk about it. Today seemed off, I couldn’t put my finger on it, but I could tell Tyler was in a funk. Jenna, Tyler’s soon to be wife, showed up a little later. She too, was in a funk. Once the youth group showed up and tyler started the music I put my feelings aside and made the best of things. Tyler went to go start the lesson and give announcements, when he paused, and told us the news. Jenna and Tyler are graduating, Jenna is starting Med school, and I believe Tyler is starting grad school as well, on top of all that Tyler and Jenna are getting married before the month ends. Tyler announced that he is stepping down from as the youth minister at Allen FBC. I don’t blame him. He has a wonderful life ahead of him, not that Allen is holding him back, it’s just there is opportunity for someone else’s life to be blessed by our tiny town. I do fear for the youth group though, it’s very difficult to make the transition to a new youth pastor. I worry and pray for them all. Tyler is the reason my faith is what it is, I know the blessing he has in others lives is just as strong. I hope the students here at FBC can get used to the new youth pastor, so many times I’ve seen students walk away after losing their friend/youth pastor. Sorry, this is just tough for me. After church I just had to get out of there. I don’t know why it hit me so hard, I knew it was coming; Tyler and I had spoken several times about the doors God has been opening in his life. It’s because I feel alone. I’m alone in Allen. Tyler is really the only friend I have here until heather gets here. And now it’s like a ticking time bomb. Every second is just another second closer to him leaving. I miss everyone. I miss Suzanna, Steven, Kristi, Caleb, Danny, Haddon, Tyler, Robbie, Wendy, Ben, KJ, basically everyone. It wasn’t this bad last year. I had my parents at least. At the end of the day I know I’m not alone. But if that’s true, why do I feel this way. This is all just rambling though. I bet it’s just the weather that’s got me bummed. Will talk tomorrow.

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